Monday, June 4, 2012

last night

It was probably a bad idea.

But the moment I saw you stroke your cock for me... saw it respond to my body... twitch at the words I said to you... I was captivated.  Through hushed words we teased each other... the need for release building... but neither of us in a rush to get there...

I don't think I've ever been so aroused as when you had me lay back... watching your cock approaching me from above... thrusting towards me... making a show of how it wanted to fuck me.

We played longer than I'm used to... you may very well have the most gorgeous cock I've ever seen... and the most dangerous smile... and made made the most delicious mess when you came...

I've been wet all day thinking about you.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

What I'm craving right now...

It’s a sleepy, winter morning. Not too cold, but cloudy, grey, and damp.


What I’m craving right now is you lying beside me in my bed. I love the faint scent of your skin beside me- that beautiful cocktail of your soap, the salt of your skin, and the faintest hint of last night’s cum. Although that’s probably mostly on me.


I’d begin to run my hand gently over your arm when I notice, like me, you’re in that state between sleeping in awake where you really can’t commit to either one. I slide my palm over your chest as I move closer to you, my head on your shoulder, my breasts pushed into your side, as I draw delicate, little circles with my fingers on your chest. You let out a sigh of approval, and turn to kiss me on the forehead. We remain like this for several minutes, holding each other. If we’re talking, we’re barely using words.


“Sleepy okay?”

“Mmm hmm”.


“This is nice”.

“Yeaaaaaah….”.


And so it goes.


But what I’m craving in my mind most of all this morning is the way you always, once you’re worked up enough, hold my hand. Taking it, kissing it, holding it against your chest, until you finally take control and slide my hand down your body, until, like a glove, you grasp your cock with my hand. Lingering there long enough to let me know exactly what you want. You push down your shorts just far enough down your hips so I have full access to everything you want me to touch.


Since our first time together, it always struck me how soft the skin of your cock feels, even when you’re intensely hard and thrusting into my mouth. I don’t even have to see it; I’d recognize the feeling of your cock in my hand anywhere.


I follow our typical, lazy morning routine.


At first, I simply rock my hand up and down the top of your shaft, feeling you, feeling your semi-hard shaft below my palm, enjoying hearing your breathing quicken with my head now resting on your chest. I then move the pads of my fingers further down, tracing the outline of your cock head. Running my fingers along the flared underside, followed by the gentle valley along the tip, before my fingers follow along down the underside of your cock towards your sack. We both laugh quietly when you jump as I tuck on your balls gently, taking them in my hand, holding them, as my thumb traces the seem in between.


I love mornings like this. Lazy. When I can explore your body leisurely. Taking pleasure in every reaction, twitch, and sound you make. Taking pleasure in how your skin feels against mine: every texture, ridge, hair… the spongy feel your cock takes when I grip it before it’s fully hard… all of this is mine and I couldn’t be more proud.


You’re definitely fully awake now. Your eyes are wide open looking down at me, your chest is rising and falling faster, and your hips twitch every time I change actions. Some mornings, especially if I’ve already showered for work and I’m simply waking you up to let you know I’m leaving soon, I’ll stroke you until you cum on your chest. But this morning we woke up together, a shower will come later, which leaves the possibilities endless.


Your fingers run through my hair as I explore your body with my fingers, now gripping your fully erect shaft in my hand. Stroking you, pulling you up against your stomach towards me. Flicking my thumb against your reddening cock head every so often, if only for the noise you make when you do it. But then I feel that familiar pressure and the crown of my head as you slowly push my head downward, toward your cock. Gentle enough to not break the mood, but firmly enough to leave no question of what you want.


I lick my tongue from the base of your cock, where it grows out from your abdomen, all the way along your shaft, tasting your hot skin as I lick towards the tip. When I reach the tip of your dick I take it into my mouth, sucking as I move my body now so I can kneel between your legs. I hear you moan as I’m now in the place you like me most, kneeling on the bed between your thighs, naked, exposed, and head down, sucking you. I move my left hand down to play with your sack as my right hand grips the base of your cock, stroking it, twisting it slightly, as I move my mouth up and down your cock, my tongue darting against it as I do. Knowing it wont be long now, your first round of the morning always goes by so quickly, I stroke you more tightly now, as I turn my head, and press my tongue against your balls. Licking, sucking, and fingering at your swollen sack. I relish in the sounds you make, forgetting your English, sighing my name, moaning. I can’t get enough of it. Your hips begin thrusting into my hand and you beg me for my mouth again. I happily oblige, although now my work, basically, is done.


I move my mouth over the tip of your cock again, tasting the first few drops of precum pooling there. God, I love your taste. I make sure to lock eyes with you as I sink my mouth over you; I know you get a thrill of watching the tip of your penis penetrate my soft lips. I take you as deep as I can, then retract. Your hands move onto my head again, guiding my movements, slowly at first, but I can feel you getting closer. I move my hands to your hips to brace myself as you slowly begin to thrust into my mouth. You always start slowly, taking long, but deep pushes into my mouth. But you almost always lose control at this point and I brace myself as you begin thrusting into my throat, fucking your cock into my mouth. We’ve never talked about it, but I’m still so self-conscious about what my mouth and throat do at this point- I blame the pornography industry for making this look effortless. But with experience, I’ve learned that you actually enjoy the things I’m still so shy about- the gagging noises as your cock pushes towards my throat, the slurping noises when I close my lips around you and suck. The tears that sometimes form in my eyes- not from pain, but just as a reflex from having my throat open like this. But then, on my end, all the discomfort leads to incredible excitement. And if that wasn’t enough, the way you yell out my name this point, without failure, turns me on so much that I can’t think of anything else.


Your thrusts grow faster, more urgent, and it isn’t long before I see your stomach clench, your face contort, and begin to taste the lovely and familiar taste of your cum flooding my mouth. I love the taste, and I love your smell- something between a salty, skin-like scent, and a hint of chlorine. You’ve laughed at me in the past when I remarked how your smell and taste “clean”, but I really can’t think of a better word to sum up your taste.


I close my lips around your cock as you thrust in those last few times, feeling the ropes of your cum hit the back of my throat as I swallow them down. I keep my mouth wrapped around you until you tell me you’ve had enough. I lick my lips clean and then crawl back against you, resting my head on your chest, hearing your heartbeat slowly calming. Reaching down to feel your cock softening, growing sensitive and ticklish to my touch, before resting my hand on your stomach as we both drift back into sleep.


This is what I’m craving this morning, more than anything.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Fantasy and Reality- Should they ever meet?

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Friday, March 25, 2011

the other night...

I’m sitting on my bed. It’s been a long, hard week at work and I am ready for sleep. But I can’t sleep… there’s an itch that needs tending to.


I’m sitting here, legs spread, my hand moving across my inner thighs, across my pussy, thinking of you and the last time we saw each other. I wish you were here right now. I wish we had finished what we started. I wish I didn’t feel the need to leave you wanting more.


We’ve known each other for only a short time, and yet I want you so badly. Our last date- when I was on my way to meet you, I was convinced it was our last. You’re a gorgeous man, smart, and kind, and yet, after two dates, I knew I felt nothing. What a shame.


During the movie, when your leg would lean against mine, you would pull back, and I would be relieved. Maybe you felt the same way about me. Maybe I didn’t have to be the bitch to break it off. Perhaps, the feeling of indifference was mutual.


The movie ends and you ask me to stay. I say I have to work in the morning- which is true, but mostly, I’m just tired and ready to go home alone. You put your arm around me. I tell you I think we should be friends, and that you shouldn’t hold out hope that something might happen between us. You say that you’re okay with that. Yet your arm hasn’t moved.


But with the ‘truth’ out there, with me telling you I don’t feel anything, I feel more comfortable with you than I have yet. We sit there for a while and talk. Then you kiss me. As usual it’s far too much too fast- take your tongue back. God, someone needs to teach you a lesson. I may not be interested in you, but someone has to teach you how to kiss a girl- I don’t want you to go into your next relationship with your sloppy habits. My mind quickly remembers our sloppy, public make out on our first date- how I had to wipe my face after you pulled away from me. How mortified I was. You need to learn.


“Let me kiss you,” I say, and I push you away. I take a breath and then lean towards you, and kiss your top lip, and then your bottom lip. You open your mouth but I lean back. I try again, and this time, you seem to catch on. I kiss your lips, you kiss mine in return. We carry on, and slowly, our kissing grows more intense. You’re pleasing me: a pleasant surprise. Our mouths open, and your tongue traces along my lips, and then enters my mouth slowly. I reciprocate. And before I know it, I am lying down on your couch and pulling you on top of me.


The kissing intensifies, and I am growing turned on by feeling your weight on my body. Your tongue probes my mouth and I run my hand through your hair- it’s surprisingly soft and thick. You begin to move away from my mouth, down my neck… god… it feels so good… and towards my breasts. You kiss the cleavage that shows above the neckline of my shirt as your hand runs up from my waist, under my shirt, and cups my breasts, and pushes them towards your hungry mouth. God… it’s like you knew how much I love having my tits played with. You tug on my shirt but I object- a part of me knows I came to your apartment knowing full well I didn’t want you to touch me, even above my clothes- but I can’t resist. I have you pull off my shirt but I keep my bra on. Your skilled mouth still finds my nipples and sucks them, hard. I let out a soft moan. I love your hands on my body, your mouth on mine, on my neck, sucking my breasts…. God…


I take off my bra, and pull off your shirt. You seem shy at first and ask me, “Is this okay?”. I laugh, pull you against me and kiss you hard. I love the warmth of your bare skin against my breasts. You rub my pussy over my jeans and ask me if it’s okay, if I like it. “God… yes… I love that, it feels so good,” I sigh. You begin to kiss your way down my body again, but I stop you when you reach the button of my jeans and pull my zipper. “No,” I say, “Not tonight”. As much as I want it, as sure as I am that you would make me cum easily, I tell myself that I’ll regret it, that I’m only here to teach you how to kiss.


Lies, of course.


We continue to make out on your couch. You offer to carry me to your bedroom but I refuse. We’ve already gone far past the terms of the friendship we discussed earlier. I should go home soon. I have to wake up for work in a few hours. This is not the night.


You begin to suck and bite my nipples as your hand rubs between my denim-clad thighs roughly. I moan. Fuck, it feels so good. I can’t take it. I begin to undo the clasp of my jeans and you pull them off of my legs, and toss them to the floor.


You lean back and look at me, and I realize just how vulnerable and weak I am. I wasn’t even going to kiss you tonight, and yet here I am, laying on the couch in front of you, naked with the exception of my jewelry and silk panties, while you stand there- strong and tall, still in your jeans and socks, starting down at me.


You run your hand over my panties and I know you must feel the heat from my pussy. You don’t take your eyes off of mine as you ask, “Do you like this?”. I nod, shyly, not knowing how the control tonight shifted away from me. You move your fingers underneath my panties, and slip one finger into my pussy. I sigh. I can’t believe you’re touching my pussy. I can’t believe, even though it’s just one finger, that I’ve allowed you into my cunt.


I pull you towards me, I want you to kiss me, I want you back on top of me, but you resist. You stand there over me, and slip another finger into my pussy. “Do you like this?” you ask, your eyes burning into mine. “Yes, I love it, it feels amazing”. With that, you begin to move your fingers in and out of my pussy. I feel completely powerless- laying all but naked before you, the sounds of your fingers moving in and out of my wet pussy filling the room- there’s obviously no secret how wet I am. You fuck me with your fingers furiously, but keep your distance. All the while I am still in disbelief of what is happening, Is he really fingering me? Are my clothes really on the floor right now? How the fuck did this happen? This is as far as it goes.


You remove your fingers and move them to my clit, searching for it at first, so I help you find it, and you play with it. Rubbing it, twisting it, god, how I wish you would just pinch it, and make me scream. I am close to cumming when you remove your hands, move them back to my breasts, and kiss me. You fucking tease.


My legs are spread wide, and I feel your erection grinding into me through your jeans. You lift my legs and position them so I put them around your back. You kiss me as seem as though you are fucking me through your jeans- breathing heavy, slamming hard against my body and you grab at me and I run my nails down your back, and kiss your neck and shoulders. You pick up pace. I want you to fuck me so badly but I am determined to wait and see if I even like you when our clothes are back on. Maybe on our next date. I pull you hard against my body as you grind into me, your hands moving to my ass, lifting me towards you. Although this is almost entirely innocent, I can’t help but feel turned on. The texture of your jeans rubs my clit through my panties in just the right way, and I feel myself working towards climax again. I arch my back and, as if by instinct, angle my pussy closer to your restrained cock. You moan. I feel your shudder. Is he cumming?, I wonder. You slow your thrusting, but I continue to grind against you. You move your head down and take my nipple into your mouth and suck… hard, and explore the very tip of it with your tongue… no one has ever toyed with me like that, and it sends me over the edge, as I cling to your body and sigh out a short, but intense, orgasm.


We fool around a while longer, and eventually relax, simply whispering to each other, caressing each other’s bodies. And we make a date for next weekend, when I have time to spend the night.


I really fucking hope you call. I’ve had this itch all week.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Vegas: Chapter One

Here it is- finally!- the first installment of the Vegas series. This entry is quite long and gives you quite a bit of background on the story, but it's my hope that that will make the whole thing a little more interesting as time goes on. I think the entire project will run about five chapters. I'm going to try go put up one chapter a month from here on out- hopefully with some other miscellaneous posts scattered in between. Enjoy, and please, please, let me know what you think.

~J

PS: Sorry for the strange formatting in places- Microsoft Word and Blogger don't always play well together. I hope it's not too distracting..

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It was a big surprise when I stepped into Jean Paul’s living room to find him alone. We had planned this evening the day before: he and his girlfriend, Hannah, also a good friend of mine, were leaving for Vegas for the weekend on Friday. Tonight, Thursday, I was going to join them, along with a few of our other mutual friends for a evening of food, wine, and debauchery to start their weekend off on the right foot. But while I was expecting to see a room full of people, music, and laughter, I walked into his apartment to see only Jean Paul sitting on the couch, some paperwork on the coffee table, and a broken vase on the floor.

Not quite sure what to think, I quietly said, “Hey… sorry I didn’t get a chance to check to see if any messages were left on my voicemail. I’m guessing the plans have changed for tonight?”

“Oh, they’ve changed alright”. Jean Paul picked himself off of the couch, sounding calmer than I would have expected given the state of the room. He walked to the kitchen counter and poured two glasses of wine. He returned to the room, handed me a glass, and said, “I have a proposition for you… any interest in going to Vegas?”

Jean Paul explained that he and Hannah had quite an intense fight that afternoon resulting in Hannah announcing she would be going to her parents’ house instead of Vegas with him as planned, throwing a vase on the floor for dramatic effect, and storming out. I was shocked as they seemed to be a pretty solid couple and he wouldn’t say what the fight was about exactly. I knew he could be pushy and at his worst, domineering- family money and a career of telling people what to do tends to make a person that way. And Hannah, although one of my best friends, could be flighty. The trip the couple had planned was obviously not going to work out, but, as Jean Paul explained, “No cancellation insurance. Everything’s already paid for… someone should get some enjoyment out of it”.

I wasn’t sure. I know a lot of people think of Vegas as a glamorous, glittery playground for grownups, but honestly, for me, I never had any desire to go there. The perceived glamour of Vegas seemed pretentious to me- for those who wouldn’t know sophistication if it slapped them in the face. When I thought of Las Vegas I thought about cigarette burns in upholstery and Elvis fanatics who had visited Graceland the year before, clad in faded, Lycra pants. In a word, I thought Vegas was tacky.

Jean Paul insisted though. Hannah certainly wasn’t going, and he would likely spend the next day with a bottle of gin before resolving to run after Hannah on Saturday. If I wasn’t going to take their place, the money they spent would simply go to waste. Jean Paul also brought up the fact that I hadn’t been out of the country in over a year- a sad state for someone who loves adventure. It was only for the weekend so it wouldn’t affect my work. The one thing I did know is that Jean Paul and Hannah had exquisite taste… they would have spared no expense on accommodations. Eventually I gave in. Jean Paul told me to be at the airport by four the next afternoon; he would take care of everything else in terms of changing the name on the ticket, reservation at the hotel, and so forth.

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The other passengers on the plane seemed to fit into three categories: honeymooners, seniors, and obnoxious groups of younger people, around my age, who kept reciting, “What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!” as if they were the first to be clever enough to say it out loud. The girls dressed slutty (ironically, not sexy), the boys wore their uniforms of cargo shorts and collared t-shirts, the seniors dressed for comfort, and the honeymooners dressed to match each other. I felt oddly out of place in my jeans, yellow t-shirt, and leather jacket. Thank God I had the row of seats to myself.

I took off the jacket shortly after claiming my bag. As I walked out of the airport, the warm evening air welcomed me, making me feel a little less ambivalent towards this new city. As I approached the queue of taxis to find one to take me to my hotel, I was surprised to see a man holding a sign with my name on it. Jean Paul had thought of everything, apparently. The man showed me to a lovely black car- no smelly taxi for me, apparently- and it was off to the hotel.

The lobby of the hotel was large, empty, and cool. And beautiful. Something out of a designer’s textbook under “minimalism”, but without coming off as inhuman. The man behind the front desk greeted me with a warm and handsome smile. The bellhop offered to take my bags up to my room, but as I had packed light, I was happy to do the work for myself. Before I left to find the elevator, the concierge told me I had a message and handed me an envelope.

In the elevator I tore open the envelope to find an email sent to hotel, for me, from Jean Paul.

“If you’re reading this, it means you didn’t decide to bail last minute on this trip. I’m glad. I want you to take in all that you can while you’re on vacation. As I said yesterday, everything is already booked and paid for, so don’t feel bad about indulging- it would be wasteful not to. Oh. One more thing. As this was supposed to me a romantic weekend for Hannah and me, we booked some of the ‘extras’ on the hotel’s services menu and I had a few surprises in store for her. Don’t be alarmed. Don’t feel pressured to try anything… though I hope you don’t hold back either. It is Vegas after all. –JP”

I wasn’t sure what that last bit meant, though I’d guessed he had some concert tickets or expensive champagne ordered, something to surprise Hannah.

I unlocked the door to find one of the most beautiful hotel rooms I’ve ever entered. Modern, sleek, it’s as if the room had a glow to it. There was everything you could ask for: a luxurious bed with many pillows and a fur throw, a enormous bathroom with a rainwater shower and large Jacuzzi, flat screen television, several windows, a kitchen, a dining room, and a few couches. Luxury indeed. I set my bags by the bed- I planned to take a shower right away and then leave to check out some of the sights.

It was then I noticed a small card on the night table. It read, “Check the kitchen”. I walked over to the kitchen and found a bottle of Shiraz on the counter. “Well, I am in Vegas,” I told myself and decided to pour myself a glass. In the cupboard where the glasses were kept was another note. “Press play on the stereo”.

I poured a generous amount of wine into my glass and walked towards the stereo. I pressed play, and I heard Jean Paul’s voice, “I want you to enjoy this. One last surprise. Look under the bed”. His voice disappeared and was replaced by some of the best downtempo music I’ve ever heard: dreamy with a strong, heavy beat and gentle melody. By this point I was well aware that all of this was done to put Hannah in a receptive mood and I felt a little guilty- both she and Jean Paul were back at home, miserable, and here I was enjoying their romantic getaway. I also felt a little voyeuristic- I never took Jean Paul to be romantic, but he had clearly put a lot of thought into this trip.

I put those thoughts out of my head- obviously it was okay to indulge, I even had a note saying it was okay. Besides, for me, this wasn’t romantic. I was on my own. To hell with it. I walked over to the bed, bent down, and peered to see what the last surprise was. What I found was a large, white, cardboard box- it looked like a dress box. I untied the pink ribbon and opened it. There were several items, all individually wrapped, all with numbers written on them- I imagined there was an order in which things were to be discovered.

The first package was the largest, and looked from the outside like a giant mess of tissue paper. Inside however, was a dress. A beautiful dress costing what I probably earn in three months at my job. Couture. Short, black, with a deep “V” cut down the front and the back. The second package contained very high stiletto shoes- beautiful- and they matched the dress perfectly. Obviously Jean Paul was in the mood to take Hannah out and show her off- he did that from time to time at home too, although would never admit it to me.

Package number three contained perfumed body lotion- I rubbed some over my hands and arms- the smell was intoxicating. I moved my hands up to my face and my neck, rubbing the lotion into my skin. I took off my t-shirt and moved my hands over the tops of my breasts, over my stomach, my skin drinking in the silky lotion. My body grew warm and I knew that I was slightly arouse- between the excitement of travel, the red wine, and this lotion, that was bound to happen. By this point any hesitation I had in indulging in Jean Paul’s efforts had left my mind- I was consumed by curiosity and indulgence- these were my things now.

Package four was filled with gourmet chocolates- I savored one or two before moving on to the next package. I was like a child on Christmas morning- I wanted to keep unwrapping these surprises forever. As I undid the ribbon on this last package- a smaller, white box, I tried to imagine what it would be. There was already wine, music, clothes, body lotion and chocolate… perfume… jewelry perhaps?

It was neither. I was caught a little off guard when I opened this last box to find a vibrator. And quite an intimidating one at that- it was quite large, clearly meant to work like a dildo- but there was also a piece extending out from the base- likely to work the clit. However once the initial shock wore off, I was curious… and tempted. Did I dare? It was brand new and still in its package so I knew no one had touched it before… but it was intended for my friend…. but was Jean Paul going to have it shipped back home if he and Hannah reconciled? Probably not. He did encourage me to indulge on this trip….

I got off of the bed and walked to the windows where I closed the drapes. I turned the music a little louder. I ate chocolate and drank another glass of wine. I stripped down to just my panties- I decided to use more of the lotion. I started by rubbing the lotion into my shoulder… I went over my arms again… then my feet, my calves, my knees, my thighs… up to my ass, my stomach and lower back… and then there I was, virtually naked and playing with my breasts and nipples with a present meant for a friend. If there was a lined to be crossed, I had definitely crossed it by now… and I was very aroused by this point… I reached for the vibrator.


I lied to myself at first, thinking I just wanted to see how it worked. I turned it on, I giggled at the buzzing noise it made (clearly two glasses of wine was enough for now). There was a dial on its handle… I twisted it... depending on which way I turned it, the vibrator would either go faster or slower. My eyes were drawn to the tip of the device- it didn’t just vibrate, but it actually twisted and moved. At that point I knew I had to try it.

I moved on to the bed and laid on my back, my scented skin immediately recognizing the high thread-count of the sheets. I bent my knees. Taking the vibrator in my hands I turned the dial to the lowest setting… I touched it to my left nipple, immediately turning it hard. The sensation sent an almost-electric surge through my body. Nothing close to an orgasm of course, but the instant sense of pleasure certainly pleased my body. As great as it felt, I was greedy. I wanted more.

I ran the shaft of the vibrator across my breasts then dragged it down. Along my stomach, past my belly button, lower, lower… I stopped shy of my clit. I moved the vibrator to my knees- I giggled once again at the immediate shock of the vibrations. I moved the vibrator slowly up my inner thigh… teasing myself, squeezing my breast with my other hand. I was already wet and definitely very horny.

I decided not to tease myself, not to do things gradually- I wanted to get off, and I wanted to get off quickly. I turned off the vibrator for a moment. With my left hand I spread open my pussy lips, edging the head of the vibrator between then, and slowly guided it into my sex. The girth of the device was a little more than I was used to, and although I was wet, my entrance fought against the thick shaft of the vibrator. I arched my back and lifted my ass off of the bed a little bit and continued to push the silicone cock into my pussy. Slowly, it sank deeper and deeper inside of me and I could feel my pussy stretching to accommodate the machine. Soon, I felt I had taken as much of the vibrator inside of me that I could. I twisted the dial and turned on the vibrator.

The first thing I felt was the gentle flutter of the vibrations at my opening- a lovely, soft feeling. I could lay there like that all day and feel aroused. Although I wouldn’t like cum that way. I turned up the dial further… about half way to the full speed. The vibrations grew more intense and I felt the end of the shaft, deep inside of my cunt, beginning to rotate. I was in ecstasy. Every time the head of the shaft brushed against my g-spot I couldn’t help but whimper. I started fucking myself with the vibrator slowly… I didn’t pull the device very far from my pussy when I did, just an inch or so, to move the shaft up and down the walls of my pussy. It felt amazing. I could feel my body grow hot and I noticed beads of sweat appearing between my breasts. I turned the dial to set the vibrator at its maximum speed.

At this point the small “arm” of the vibrator, which up to this point rested gently against my clit, came to life and began to buzz with vibrations along with its larger counterpart- which by now was twisting inside my pussy faster and with more strength. My vision blurred as the sensations- my buzzing clit, my vibrating pussy lips, and the twisting of the silicone cock against my g-spot- took over my body. I held the vibrator in place with my right hand and grabbed a pillow to cover up my mouth and muffle my moans and cries. It wouldn’t be long before I climaxed and I knew I would have a hard time staying quiet. I pushed on the vibrator, urging it a little further into my dripping sex while the vibrations against my clit were like a vice- holding my entire body captive with pleasure. My body began to tense up. First my legs- my feet digging into the bed and my tights holding up my ass as my back arched… then my arms… my breasts were tender and my nipples were standing at attention… my stomach tightened… my pussy clenched onto the vibrator, squeezing it, not allowing it to escape.

My breaths grew shorter and my eyes squinted shut as a tidal wave of pleasure, beginning with my clit, coursed through my body… I screamed into the pillow as pulse after pulse of energy emitted from between my legs. My body shook and I held on for dear life as the orgasm tore through every inch of my body. It was heavenly.

When my orgasm finally subsided I turned of the vibrator and rolled on to my side, my heart still beating very fast. I laid there while I caught my breath and slowly pulled the vibrator from my pussy. It glistened with my juices. After a few minutes of recovery I moved off of the bed and towards the bathroom. Soon I would be dressed and ready to explore what else Vegas had in store for me. I carried the vibrator along with me… in case I got lonely in the shower.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Call Girl- Outed

One of my favourite bloggers, Belle de Jour, has been outed.

Belle de Jour (Magnati, left) pictured with Billie Piper who plays her on ITV.

Those of you who have read my blog, but more so those of you who have had some sort of relationship with me online- via discussion forums, chat, and email- know how obsessive I am with my privacy. As I've mentioned I do live my life somewhat in the eye of the public and although it seems ridiculous- all I do is chat with some nice people on the internet about something that everyone thinks about- sex- and I occasionally (barely) post things about it on a blog. That said, if it came out, I'd lose my job. Of that I'm quite certain.

Escorts have always fascinated me. Not even in a sexual fantasy-world sort of way. I've always wondered what it would be like if sex were, literally, work. Chosen work- let me clarify. In the study of prostitution- from a anthropologic/sociological perspective, prostitution is normally broken down in to several categories. How many and how they are defined depend on who you ask. A couple examples you no doubt have heard of- child prostitution and survival prostitution (for drugs, food, etc- force by circumstance). But the type that has always intrigued me (where the others sadden me, in my opinion those are not issues of sex and sexuality, but of power, poverty, and global politics) is where prostitution is chosen. What affect would it have on your actual sex life? On your love life? Your view of people? Your sexuality itself- orientation, fantasies, libido, and so forth?

Aside from a few documentaries here and there, my first in-depth look of the world of escorts came when I read Jeannette Angell's memoir Callgirl: Confessions of an Ivy League Lady of Pleasure. A fascinating personal account if you're heading to the book store any time soon. Angell was a university professor in Boston. Academia doesn't pay well- as a sessional prof, she was paid per course, per term- at the end of the term. Meaning no regular paycheque. Of course, this was very inconvenient when her boyfriend left her and cleared out her bank account and there would be no income for months. She didn't want to lean on friends or family. It was time for a second job. I don't want to spoil the book- but this is what began her journey as a callgirl.

Later, Showcase (think the Canadian version of Cinemax) began airing ITV's (UK) Secret Diary of a Callgirl where "Belle" is played by Billie Piper. It quickly became my favourite show (although, sadly, Showcase only showed the first season). It was witty, smart, sexy, and definitely a much more optimistic take on Angell's memoir. Oh television. It was later that I realized that the program was based on a series of books, which were based on a blog, which is based on the life of Belle de Jour. Recently outed as researcher Brooke Magnanti.

As I said, it is one of my favourite blogs. Smart, witty, and insightful. Not smutty and lazy like my blog, for instance. In fact, Belle de Jour has mentioned sex blogs like mine an others in her posts before- calling them out for being complete nonsense. Ah well. Pornography, erotica, cybersex... I don't think anyone has ever doubted their fantastical nature.

Magnati's outing fascinates me almost more than her 14 months as an escort. I can't imagine what it would be like if my family found out about my online habits and my sexual nature. But again- really- it's all pretty tame for me. Magnati certainly has a higher profile than I do, and certainly had more to be outed for. And yet she's handled this with class and poise and I can't help be a little more in love with her than I was before.

Perhaps the part that made me smile about her coming out story was when she mentioned her mother's reaction: ""I rang my mum. She lives in New York; we’ve had our ups and downs, as most do. Obviously, I worried about her reaction. But she was immediately supportive. “A girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do,” she said. “In my day we were giving it away for free.”"

Magnati also received her fair share of hate mail, fan mail, threats, and tabloid attention, but from the tone of her blog she seems to be the very embodiment of Keep Calm and Carry On. I'm also thrilled that she continues to update her blog. Although their are no clear answers to some of the general questions I mentioned at the beginning of the post- how would having sex for a job affect you- Magnati certainly offers an interesting case study.

Article on Magnati's Outing (written by Magnati): here.
Belle de Jour's Blog: here (and always linked at the left).

Monday, April 5, 2010

An Afternoon Well Spent

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Monday, October 26, 2009

june transcript

I had this saved in the 'drafts' (offline) area of my blog. It was written back in June. Here's what I had to say about it then: "Was feeling pretty randy last night after getting home from a friend's close to 3 a.m. Starting chatting to one of my contacts, and we very quickly moved on to cybersex. I'll be honest, it's a bit bland and generic, but I still got off on it". Anyhow, I'm posting this just as something to carry over to my next story, which will likely be the first installment of my 'Vegas' project.

Hope you enjoy,
~J


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Boy says: Hello hello

SaucyMinx says: Hi

Boy says: I’m very curious about you

Boy says: and those huge tits… and sexy hair… and eyes and face….

Boy says: …your shaved pussy

Boy says: mm I love licking a hot smooth pussy

SaucyMinx says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: So tell me more about what you look like

Boy says: Blond hair shaved short brown eyes 5'11 really athletic body

Boy says: and I have a huge cock

SaucyMinx says: Oh?

Boy says: Haha yeah

Boy says: Is your pussy wet?

SaucyMinx says: It’s definitely getting there

SaucyMinx says: Are you playing with your cock right now?

Boy says: Yeah

Boy says: mmm I love nothing more then licking hot wet smooth pussy

SaucyMinx says: Well, maybe I should spread my legs a little wider for you...

Boy says: mm yea spread them so my tongue can spread your pussy lips, licking you deep, up and down

SaucyMinx says: mmm… I’d love to feel your tongue on my clit and pussy

Boy says: Running my tongue up and down your lips, moving up to your clit, sucking it, flicking my tongue against it

Boy says: twirling my tongue around it

SaucyMinx says: Ooooh, you know just what you're doing

Boy says: mm yes

Boy says: As I suck that clit, I slowly slide a finger in

Boy says: and work it back and forth, getting you ready for a huge thick cock

SaucyMinx says: Oh my god I’m so wet now

SaucyMinx says: Are you hard?

Boy says: Nope- lol

SaucyMinx says: lol

Boy says: How wet are you

SaucyMinx says: Soaked

Boy says: Mmm, I’d love to slowly push my cock inside of you, letting you feel every inch of my cock fill that hot wet cunt

SaucyMinx says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: I want you to fuck me so badly

Boy says: I want to taste that hot wet pussy

SaucyMinx says: What’s your favourite thing to do, sexually?

Boy says: Eat pussy, baby

SaucyMinx says: Oh wow- you are a keeper aren’t you? Lol

Boy says: Haha

SaucyMinx says: Is there anything you'd like me to do while you're doing that?

Boy says: Hmmm…. I’d love for you to suck my cock as your pussy is spread across my face

SaucyMinx says: mmmm, I can do that….

SaucyMinx says: Taking the head of your cock into my mouth while I run my hand up and down the base of your shaft

Boy says: Mmmm yes

Boy says: My tongue licks you deep, licking you up and down, my index finger twirling inside you

SaucyMinx says: I lick up and down your shaft, and moan as you twist your finger inside my pussy

Boy says: That’s right, I want that pussy across my face

SaucyMinx says: mmm, you just tell me how you want me to move, and I will ;)

Boy says: Rock those hips against my mouth, baby

SaucyMinx says: Spreading my legs as wide as they can go- gyrating my hips against your mouth- your mouth feels so good on my pussy- and your fingers are driving me wild

Boy says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: I’m taking your cock as deep into my mouth as I can, swirling my tongue around it as it do

Boy says: Mmm how deep can you take it

SaucyMinx says: Depends how thick you are- probably 5 or 6 inches

SaucyMinx says: Or I can always take your cock between my tits

Boy says: I can barely close my hand around it

SaucyMinx says: Definitely closer to 5 then....

Boy says: good

Boy says: I bet it would feel so good

Boy says: I want you to cum from my tongue baby, making you moan, scream, cry

SaucyMinx says: Moaning, squirming.... you have me so hot

Boy says: mm I want you dripping

SaucyMinx says: I am (for real)

Boy says: damn

Boy says: That’s really making me horny

SaucyMinx says: I’m glad

Boy says: You would be even gladder if you saw my cock right now

Boy says: Then you’d really be dripping

SaucyMinx says: You're such a tease

Boy says: I know

Boy says: What position do you like?

SaucyMinx says: Missionary- I know it's kind of dull, but I’ve always found it hot

Boy says: Mmm I’d love to see your tits bouncing from me fucking you

SaucyMinx says: I’d love to feel you fuck me

Boy says: I might hurt you

SaucyMinx says: I’m ok with that

Boy says: mmm damn

SaucyMinx says: God I’m soooo horny right now

Boy says: You better be

Boy says: Do you masturbate much?

SaucyMinx says: Of course

Boy says: mmm sexy

Boy says: I want to know more about that hot wet pussy

Boy says: Mmmm, yeah

Boy says: You’re wet now…?

SaucyMinx says: Trust me, my pussy is definitely wet right now

Boy says: Mmmm, I want you dripping

SaucyMinx says: How hard are you?

Boy says: Very- can barely close my hand around it

SaucyMinx says: I wish I were there to help you out with that

Boy says: How would you help me out?

SaucyMinx says: I would probably start by replacing your hands with mine- looking you in the eyes as I rub my hands up and down your cock

Boy says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: Then I would kneel down and start kissing your cock, before taking you in my mouth

SaucyMinx says: Playing with my tits as I do so you get a bit of a show

Boy says: Yes, I’d love that

Boy says: I’d reach down and rub them for you

[At this point my power went out for a few minutes, so I was temporarily offline]

SaucyMinx says: So anyways…

Boy says: haha

SaucyMinx says: Hope I haven't ruined the mood or anything

Boy says: No

SaucyMinx says: I’m still turned on (albeit a little frustrated)

Boy says: Good

SaucyMinx says: mmmm. I think I'm going to cum soon

Boy says: mmmm I’d love for you to cum on my tongue

Boy says: and then on my cock

Boy says: and again

Boy says: and again

SaucyMinx says: mmmm

SaucyMinx says: Are you close at all? I still have a few minutes left I’m sure….

Boy says: Ha-ha I don’t know had lots of stops

SaucyMinx says: Lol- that was totally called for

Boy says: haha

Boy says: Do you usually cum hard?

SaucyMinx says: I probably will

SaucyMinx says: I’ve been playing for a long time now

Boy says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: what can I do to help you cum?

Boy says: Get here

Boy says: Haha

SaucyMinx says: I'd love for you to cum with me

SaucyMinx says: And maybe inside of me

Boy says: Mmm… you think that hot tight pussy would like that?

SaucyMinx says: Oh god yes

SaucyMinx says: My pussy is aching to be filled up with your big swollen cock… and your warm, foamy cum

Boy says: Mmm

Boy says: I’d spread that hot tight pussy and slowly push my hard cock, in and out

Boy says: Letting you feel every inch, filling that cunt, stretching it

SaucyMinx says: mmmm

SaucyMinx says: Wrapping my legs around your waist, pulling you closer, my soaking pussy gripping your cock

Boy says: Yes I push deeper into you

Boy says: Making you moan

SaucyMinx says: You feel so big inside me, my pussy stretching around that big cock

Boy says: Mm yes

Boy says: I start working it in and out

SaucyMinx says: Loving the feeling as you fuck me harder

Boy says: Pulling it almost all the way out- then ramming it back in

SaucyMinx says: Yes! God, that's so hot

Boy says: I grab those big tits and pull you down on my cock, every time pushing it deeper and deeper

SaucyMinx says: You feel my pussy getting even wetter as I start moaning and saying your name

Boy says: mmm yes

Boy says: I feel you growing wetter, so I start fucking you harder and harder

Boy says: Making you feel every inch and vein of my thick cock

SaucyMinx says: Taking you deeper, my pussy loving the sensations

Boy says: Mm yes… so tight and wet… my throbbing cock loves it

SaucyMinx says: Yes, mmmm, I love your cock, my legs spread as wide as they can, I start rubbing my clit as my moans get louder

Boy says: I start pounding that pussy, driving my cock inside of you even harder

SaucyMinx says: Letting you fuck me as hard as you can now, being able to take your whole cock inside my pussy

Boy says: Loving how wet and hot you are

SaucyMinx says: Yeah... I’m so wet... my pussy is dripping for your cock

SaucyMinx says: You see me twisting under you, my pussy gripping your cock so hard... hungry for your cum

Boy says: Mmm yes- I work you harder and harder, pulling my cock all the way out and then ramming it back in

SaucyMinx says: I cry out with every thrust- a little out of pain but mostly out of pure pleasure- loving what your cock, your hands, are doing to me

SaucyMinx says: Begging for more, acting like a total slut- my wet pussy doing all of the talking for me now

Boy says: Mmm yes

Boy says: I fuck that cunt harder, making you scream

Boy says: Making you my slut

SaucyMinx says: Fuck yes, fuck me.... I’m such a dirty slut, letting a stranger use my pussy like this, letting you take me any way you like

Boy says: Mmmm. So wet… I’m able to work my entire cock in and out… so fast now, my balls slapping against your ass

SaucyMinx says: You’re a machine, fucking me so fast that your hips and ass become a blur, squeezing one of my tits so hard with one hand, another hand on my mouth- I suck on your finger as if it were your cock, only stopping to moan

Boy says: Mmm yes baby

Boy says: I love your juicy cunt, I want it so bad

SaucyMinx says: This pussy is all yours baby- you own it

Boy says: I pull my cock out, slap it against your clit, shove it back in

SaucyMinx says: I scream as you shove your thick cock back in to my pussy, as if you were splitting me open, hearing the sounds as your cock moves in and out of my dripping pussy

SaucyMinx says: I love how you fuck me, I want you so bad

Boy says: That pussy sounds so fucking nice, I’d love to tear it open with my cock

SaucyMinx says: I’d love it if you did- fucking me so I’ll never forget it

Boy says: Yes. I’ll stretch that pussy so you’ll always have to have huge cock

Boy says: Cum on my cock

SaucyMinx says: mmmm are you read to cum?

Boy says: mm hmm

SaucyMinx says: Okay baby, fill me with you cum

SaucyMinx says: You feel me gripping you tighter and tighter, my screams getting louder

Boy says: Fuck yes… I feel that pussy pulsing. I work it hard, making my cock go deep, ready to explode at any moment

SaucyMinx says: I wrap my arms and legs around you, all the muscles in my body tightening

Boy says: mm yes

Boy says: I pull you deep… my little slut… taking my whole cock deep in that destroyed pussy

SaucyMinx says: I scream louder and louder, and it feels as if my pussy is trying to pull your cock further inside of me

SaucyMinx says: You give me one more, deep, violent, thrust...

Boy says: I ram my cock as far as I can, as hard as I can

Boy says: and start shooting my cum deep in your slut pussy

SaucyMinx says: You suddenly feel my muscles twitch, and then a gush of fluid all around your cock as I scream

Boy says: mm yes

SaucyMinx says: Cumming so hard on your cock, my whole body shaking under yours

Boy says: I love it

SaucyMinx says: mmmm

Boy says: yes

Boy says: Did you cum

SaucyMinx says: Yeah

Boy says: mmmm me too

SaucyMinx says: Good

Boy says: mmm

SaucyMinx says: Well, I think this is goodnight for me

Boy says: mm ok

Boy says: Night baby

SaucyMinx says: Goodnight