january 24th, 2005

I wrote this as an 18-year-old girl on January 24th, 2005. I haven't looked at it in some time, but I thought it would be a good choice for my first entry as it's really the first saucy thing I ever put to paper. It may not be my best writing, but it's very special to me. I hope you enjoy it.

~J

A passionate kiss- so hot, so deep, so sensual and urgent that it takes my breath away. He leans down to put his mouth on mine and it's almost violent- like we're each trying to capture the other's essence, their scent- as if to never let this escape us. I feel him move inside me, connected through an act of sheer lust, or at least that's what it was at first. But now this is so much more than an erotic act shared between two people: it is him and it is me and our desires which have been building up for so long and finally exploded into a frenzy of emotional highs and physical pleasures. I want this, I need this. I need it from him as badly as he needs it from me. There is nothing else now. In this moment, in this bed, I know of no other outside world. Just my body under his, his hair falling on both sides of his face, beads of sweat, the sighs, the pants, the groans; the sound of his tongue entwined with mine, the sound of him filling me. I've never felt so helpless while I've never felt more in control. Faster and faster, the room seems to spin around us. He kisses me again, his face twisting into mine. The movement so hot, so indescribably passionate. And I wonder if it was deliberate, if it had always been an act of passion and emotion or was it merely an act of incredible lust that burst into an insatiable act of love. The physical bliss is beyond description but the kiss is what I will remember long after the bed has cooled down. Faster and faster, we seem to be soaring above the bed, building and building and finally the sweet release- our bodies fall softly back down. We stay in each other's arms and listen as the beating of each other's hearts starts to slow. A sof kiss now, not as invasive. A perfect close.